When you are reminded by something upsetting from the past and have to deal with it. It hurts to be reminded, because it makes you upset again. How you handled the upsetting issue in the past is a reflection of yourself at the time. I often confronted issues, and still do, with humour and irony, reflecting how others viewed me, or how I perceived others viewed me in relation to the upsetting issue. These are from five years ago. This media event ( the upsetting issue) and how it affected my life can be compared with how the nazis affected Germany or apartheid affected South Africa. The stigma will never go away.