Wednesday, March 22

Methods, methods, methods.....

...and topics, topics, topics.
So much to chose from. I have basically already decided to investigate how feminism expresses itself in environmental organisations. Already here the field is huge. How many organisations should I investigate and which ones? I'm not doing this because it interests me intellectually, I'm doing it out of necessity, because environmental issues are acute and need all the focus possible. Feminism because it's a "hot topic".  First I wqs thinking about going all the way in on discourseanalysis, because it in itself can involve many other methods. I haven't dismissed that idea yet, but am open to changes.

Well, well...other than that I have strained my left calf.  Mostly due to black magic or evil karma.

By Braus, Hermann - Anatomie des Menschen: ein Lehrbuch für Studierende und Ärzte, Public Domain,

Friday, March 17

See how nice I am?

Very boring interview, slurring... drinking beer and sitting in the bathtub? Babbling on about nothing really, "you know".  The horrors of mankind..of course all living creatures are people! Are you flirting with my mom?  "I like quantum physics and Isaac Asimov, Ursula K. Le Guin..Heinlein too" And social media is just "fuck, fuckety fuck, let's fuck that" ? I though you liked me. I am social media, if you count presence and impact instead of bought followers. I think that's the problem. It's my territory. Yes, you can have a small section of land in Canada if you ask nicely, with no wifi.
" I think we are intelligent people". He said that to the giggling emptyheaded interviewer. This is bad. He might be deteriorating brainly.

Wednesday, March 15

I guess the weekend is over.

But soon comes another one. All work no play. No, seriously, I have been working, working out and thinking. Thinking is important. I'm leaning towards some sort of feminist studies, to at least use that approach on some investigation. I was considering going for a "how can feminists in collaboration with environmentalists reach global power?" As a hypothetic question to do research around. Maybe the core topic will crystallize itself if I start writing about that. I have a feeling where this is going. It could go to hell, but statistically it should hold. I have enough experience writing these kind of scientific essays. If I only can keep my imagination and creativity at a minimum. In order to do that I must have outher outlets for them, which I do, as you know. Painting mostly. But then again, at the beginning stages of a major work I doubt holding back is the best strategy, that comes in later in the process. Now, it's all about finding ideas and angles. A discourse ananlysis of media- and communication science from a feministic perspective?  Too bold? In order to do a discourse analysis of an entire scientific field on approximately 45 pages? ( The directive regarding the size of the study).  It's all about packaging really and to throw in all the right ingredients. I think it might work. It's the best idea so far anyway. Aside from the Buffy- analysis, but that seems a bit passé perhaps. It's easy to sneak in examples from Buffy in a feminist perspective though. This approach would be good in the aspect that I can summarize the field for myself and get a firmer grip of what I have to work with, what is most efficient and where more research is needed. Because it can't only be an egotrip, flaunting of skills and namedropping, it has to contribute to the scientific community aswell. Not only that, it should also solve all the world's problems in a jiffy. It's a mix of both ambition and responsibility with added personal flavour. See, I'm already writing the review. Well, let's hope no major distractions occur. That life flows smoothly for a while and that time to concentrate is plenty. 

Wednesday, March 8

There's a lot of Millers out there.

How much does Thomas Jane want to get back together with Patricia Arquette, that is the question. He married and impregnated her. All that effort, and then..nothing? Was she a mock-up? She played the role of a medium, while I'm the real deal. I work as a medium anyway. Really not claiming anything for real, but you already know that based on prior research regrading my general worldview. If not, you haven't studied enough or lack the capacity to understand. It changes all the time, because the world changes all the time. Anyway, Arquette held some Oscar speech in 2015 that was mentioned today on International Women's Day( I should start podding again, this would be much easier to talk about than write ) on Instagram. Along with a headshot by some photographer named Miller. This was from 2015, did Jane then pick the name of the character ( in The Expanse) or was the character already named Miller and that's why he took it? A bit far fetched even for my standards, because there are a lot of Millers out there. In media- and communicationscience we have already stumbled upon both Katherine and Daniel Miller. Or was the photo more recent and Arquette picked the photographer based on that name. So, there might be some emotional unavailability there one could suspect.

Then I have to say, regarding the Oscars. You're all pathetic. Nobody cares. We don't salute your excuse for playing around all day. You only have this award to pass it among eachother in order to justify wasting your life on something totally meaningless as acting. The greatest actors are not on the screen, they are the psychopaths you meet in everyday life.

Happy International Women's Day!

What are we but chromosomes?

Digital version:

 Original (dry pastel on paper):

I started working with this on the train last night, and went a bit overboard with the editing. I will probably make another one more close to the original. Which in itself has a too low resolution for print. I should gather all my old paintings and have them properly scanned.