Saturday, April 6

Country life

The longer I'm out here, the further away life in the city seems. I've been planting carrots, radishes, cucumbers and flowers of various sorts. Taking care of the little piece of land I've got. There are wild boars running around at night and turning up the soil at the roots of trees looking for worms. It looks like a bombshell where they have been. I don't mind though, all wild animals are welcome here. I saw a pregnant fox the first day I was here. I hope she got away from the mad men with guns. What kind of psychopath wants to kill a pregnant fox?

Anyway, been cleaning out the attic too.Except wasps, dust and mineral wool there are some odd stuff up there, like an old accordion and some strange Tesla- like beauty device. I'm not going to try it, don't want to risk getting sent to another dimension or be duplicated. Well, duplicated might work, I don't know, how would I benefit from clones if there is no shared ego or consciousness. What if the clone become more successful than me? What if the love of my life chose the clone instead of me?

Speaking of, when I interview people who wants to work for the tarot line, I ask them about love. The most recent have told me that he will be in my life in 6 months, and that I know him since before. He's approximately one head shorter than me, five years older, dark hair and is a rocker who like, Black Sabbath. Well, that kind of narrows it down.

My first thought was of course: That is not how Zlatan looks. Perhaps on his knees and let's face it, even those who are 20 years younger than me could be mistaken for being older. ;)

Tuesday, April 2

Free topics

The need for alone time in the digital world.
The morality of fishing.

When you wish it was an Aprils fools joke. Dead whales and dolphins in thousands. Mass extinction. It is here. No fish ever eaten was that tasty to justify this.

Spending evenings listening to radio. The music channel. Olden goldies are all I could find. I have so many stories to tell, to fantasize forth. Yes, I am looking at the essay too, have written some too.

Cleaning the yard from plastic and misplaced items. Dismantling a marquis. Contemplating personal relationships. Listening to odd sounds. Sponge baths.

Sunday, March 24

Some week

Not a calm moment. Which is good in many aspects. Things are happening. Energies are accumulating. I need inspiration to write the essay, to do the real work. The struggle is not just time but also boredom. When you need to do something big and are searching for ways out until you stand in the face of the inevitable. To open the document once again. And do something. Time is running out and there is no backing down.

My motivational speech. Give me a carrot.

Thursday, March 21

My embarrassing pseudo twin

Doing what we in Sweden call dansband. Like old people's couple dance music, dance band, is it dance hall? Not sure if there's an international term for this abomination. But ok, with old age comes the right to be embarrassing, just as me with the tarot line, but that is still magic. Those teeth look scary white though. Enemmän kahvia. Ville!

My mother still denies giving birth to him, although both my grandmother and aunt has confirmed she gave birth to a baby boy in Finland. That poor rascal allegedly didn't survive, just as my little sister didn't survive. I survived.  If I die prematurely, you know who to suspect.

Isn't it romantic?

Allow me to puke, please. Yes, there's no ' Josh' ( it's a Netflix film in case you didn't know) in my life, no natural selection. I do know a Josh. but I don't think he's the one, but you never know, maybe he's evolved into adapting sex appeal? He's more like the guy who would rat me out for a pack of cigarettes. I give love advice all day long to other people. Perhaps this is my karma. Never finding love myself, only guiding others towards love. Sometimes I too get my hopes up and think that someone at least likes me, but they always dump me after a quick google, a look at my age or a concerned citizen warning them about my terrible past according to them.

Have you ever wondered why you entered this life? Was it a drunken bet? Like, I bet I can change the world by giving them the success story of my life ( I say success just to give my living self hope). A girl who was born into this world with nothing, abused all her life, wherever she went, but still survives and rises up from the ashes and does something great. I don't know that this great thing will be, or already has been done, only that its impact on the world will be enough to ...evolve? Isn't that what we're waiting for, the evolution of human kind? We all know that if we remain like this, acting like egotistical mindless and heartless creatures we are doomed. It's the end of the planet.

It's not the end of the world however. The world is more than the planet, but still. Don't you think it's worth saving, for the sake of the animals at least.

Sunday, March 17

Climate change deniers

People in Sweden, mostly middle aged men, are accusing Greta Thunberg to be a puppet of some elaborate conspiracy with the agenda to reinstall communism, or whatever. They claim that there are scientific proof that invalidates the human impact on climate changes, as in climate change is caused by the solar activities and not environmental degradation. Further they try to make Greta a victim of these conspiracy forces by expressing concerns regarding her education, that surely must be suffering from all the activism, and also complain about her childish looks,  normal 16 year old girl wear make up and don't have their hair in braids etc. They even state she is being used because of her autism, that she has the ability to memorize longer complicated phrases, because she can't possibly be able to think for herself. They want to silence her, silence the climate and environmental debate, silence women. Discourage young women from speaking up, because look what will happen to you. Middle aged men will criticize your choice of clothes and render you dumb if you don't wear a push-up bra and have collagen lips.  Classical patriarchal oppression techniques.  Regarding the science behind climate change, does it matter? Are the environmental degradation and animal extinction not enough causes to engage in environmental activism and start taking the environmental threats seriously? How can you deny the devastating human impact on nature without being totally blind, dumb and dumber? Why attack a person who wants to protect the environment? What is wrong with you? Are you that afraid of women?

Thursday, March 14

What is for humans?

A large part of humanity live under the delusion that the entire world exists just for them and they are free to do with it as they want. As a solipsistic idea of nothing existing outside the self. Another word for solipsism is egoism.  So, if we acknowledge other lifeforms outside ourselves and outside humanity, as animals, plants, the ecosystem, the planet and the entire universe as we know it ( we can't really acknowledge what  we don't know or have any conception of, other than just acknowledging our uninformed and not omnipotent selves) we should also be able to see our place, our role in the ecosystem. Are we the alien cancer of the planet or do we actually belong here? If we come to the conclusion, however irrational, that we belong here, then how do we fit into the ecosystem? How are we supposed to interact with it? For animals this comes naturally, but with our grotesque egos and seemingly unlimited brain capacity it becomes a problem almost impossible to solve. The options are too many, we know too little, we don't know how to connect to nature. We have absolutely no experience of living in harmony within our natural habitat. How is that even possible? Is that evolution? That is what we must find out, again. How to survive in the wilderness and start all over again with the basics. What is natural for humans to eat? What materials are suitable for our construction. How do we construct without imposing on the ecosystem? What materials are ours to use? What are the best methods to collect and extract material for constructions? How to collect/produce food without tormenting other species and endangering their survival? If we belong here, the answers must be found in nature.

To torture animals in factories like we do now is horrific for them and ourselves, as everything is connected in the ecosystem of the planet, everything is connected through physics and the binding of atoms and everything is connected now for humanity through the collective consciousness in media. Was it like that before? Telepathy is a dangerous subject for those who have something to hide. But there are research in the field that states the impossibility of any form of communication and understanding, learning without telepathy. My point being, the collective consciousness entails both mind and emotion. We also have a collective empathy and sense the great suffering of others being tormented. The great suffering of animals in these factories, the animals on the brink of extinction and a stressed humanity in grief. We have nearly lost our planet to the evil alien cancer. How do we fight back?  If it's not the evil alien cancer threatening us, then it's ourselves. Did we really have to cause this much suffering? Did we lack empathy that much in order to create this nightmare society? How do people working in slaughter houses even sleep at night? How can they live with themselves? The farmer who separates the calves from the mothers, or even shoot the calf in the womb. The people driving the animals transports. Who are these people?

We need to rethink everything from a sustainable environmental holistic perspective and start with ourselves and stop imagining conspiracy theories about the climate changes, stop imagining that the animals are not suffering and stop imagining that we can't do anything because everything is in corporate hands.

Blaming others /freeing yourself from guilt will not help you or anyone.


I have always said mountain climbing is the most stupid sport in the world. 

Climbing can be done in many ways though. You don't have to climb mountains and die, like these people did. 33 people have died while climbing the Devils Mountain. This guy in the article was 30 when he died climbing it, and his mother was 33 when she met the same destiny.

While we're at numbers again, I have now 3333 posts on Instagram.

This video will also have 33 333 views very soon.

See, I do know how to predict the future.

Happy Pi Day btw. 

What better way to celebrate than with numerology and predictive mathematics.