Monday, June 17

If you are having troubles with Amazon

I have gotten some complaints from people who have tried to order my book from Amazon, but the order won't go through. Please contact me and I will order the book and send it to you personally.

Sunday, June 16

Ten commands of dating Angelina

So, I've decided to give love a chance, but first some groundbreaking rules: 

1. Thou shalt love me just as I am and not try to change or control me or attempt to 'steer up' my life. 
2. Thou shalt love animals and nature and not see animals as food or nature as something to profit on.
3. Thou shalt take care of your health and economy and feel secure with yourself.
4. Thou shalt possess self distance and a sense of humor and enjoy laughing and having fun with me.
5. Thou shalt be kind and like intimacy and not be prone to violence. 
6. Thou shalt be creative and interested in joint projects.
7. Thou shalt be open minded and curious and not stuck in religious dogmas or other fix ideas.
8. Thou shalt be evolved beyond gender roles and see love as a universal power that belongs to all.
9. Thou shalt enjoy playing, games, physical exercise and travelling.
10. Thou shalt possess your own residence and respect my privacy and need for alone time. 

It's pretty basic actually and shouldn't even need to be listed, but there are people out there who don't even know the basics, so that's why I need to spell it out, for them to stay away. I am not for you misogynist asshole. 

Anyway, if you feel we have a connection and can check all these points, then feel free to contact me and ask me out on a date, coffee, dinner or whatever. However, keep in mind that just because you ask doesn't mean I am obligated to respond to your request or date you. I pick and choose whomever I want. If you're lucky then you get a yes. 

Wednesday, June 12

Body combat

For you who are familiar with the Les Mills class body combat, how rewarding is the jump kick? I mean, it's the pay off, it's what you're looking forward to do when you go there. Now, release 79 and 80 has no jump kick, according to the current instructor. New instructor btw. Nothing wrong with her. I asked her after the class why there was no jump kick in last two releases, and she didn't know. Sometimes the instructors adjust the release to fit their own preferences or the assumed capability of the class. Maybe I'm the only one who love the jump kick, but in general I think release 80 seems incredibly dull, there was no section where you really felt engaged. No song that caught your attention. I'm disappointed actually. I've been thinking about becoming an instructor myself, but then again, I turn 50 next year and am not sure I have time to be there several times per week. I'm still considering though. Maybe it's just an alluring fantasy, that isn't that fun when you actually do it, as most of everything in life. Anyway, I filed my complaint. No jump kick, no satisfied Angelina.

It's like this song, that you simply never get tired of.

Thursday, June 6

It's dangerous to leave me alone with a material

I can find so many new angles to look at it. I am so sorry for that poor guy who's essay I was opponent to. I dissected it into oblivion. He left right after. I don't know if he went crying in a corner, had to hit a wall or throw something on the ground. He will recover, I hope. Well done boy, forgot to say that.

Consider how high demands they have on me, I had no choice but to go all in. 

Sunday, June 2


 I was lying in the bath contemplating with a glass of rosé mixed with orange juice and raspberries. I was thinking about my fears. You know the saying, that you are not paranoid if they're actually out to get you. Considering what happened ten years ago and how basically every person on planet turned against me, or revealed their true face. They no longer had to hide their hatred. It was officially accepted to openly hate me and manufacture any type of scenario that could hopefully kill, or at least harm me. Considering that, it is now impossible for me to trust anyone. Every time I stumble upon any difficulties in life, my fear stemming from those happenings create suspicions that the Belgium story is behind it. As in people using that story to hurt to me. This is something I must live with. You can't just walk away from something of that magnitude and think it was nothing, it's in the past, it can't hurt me anymore or if I lay it behind me everybody else will too. I have tried all those approaches. Still it comes back to haunt me. It's not the story in itself that fears me, but how people use it hurt me all the time. Who are these people you might ask? Well, listen to those using it and you will identify them. Those are really dangerous people. Because, if you run into the arms of a serial killer, if you think that is a safe place, then WHAT are you running from?

And I can tell you what I was running from. I was trapped in a small society that had blocked all the exits, pushed into a corner, ostracized from the job market and social community, and told I had no option to survive in this community unless I started to prostitute myself. That, was what I was running from. I refused to sell my body.

Friday, May 31

Tired of talking to idiots

If you ever been a victim of gas lighting you recognize it immediately when you see it. It happens everywhere. Some people try to hide their own incompetence my making you doubt your own. If you  don't understand what I'm talking about then maybe you are stupid, have you considered that? Do I really have to lower myself to kindergarten level for you to understand me? If you find my reasoning to be too complicated for you because you don't have the prior knowledge needed to understand them, and you are in a societal position where you are at risk of losing your face because of your lacking abilities, then it's probably easier for you to attack me personally and prevent me from revealing your incompetence than actually admitting you don't have what it takes to evaluate my reasoning. 

Well, that's how the thesis is going. I'm going to embrace the "constructive criticism" and restructure to kindergarten level. If possible. It's a masters thesis, not high school.