Monday, April 23

No, I'm not gonna let it go Jared.

You promised me. You said that if I tagged your stupid tour name and Sweden you would give me free tickets to the show in Stockholm, which was yesterday. I trusted you and tagged the day before. In good time for you and your people to notice my marketing of your music industry. The industry that keeps you and your crew and their families well fed and probably well housed and financially secured for a long time ahead. Did I get any tickets? No. You know what this means? It means you are a fraud and a liar and there's nothing beautiful about that. I had no plans yesterday, I would have come to Stockholm and watched your concert and most likely provided fancy visual material which would have served as additional promotion for your industry. I don't really feel that I missed out on something though. Watching the footage from yesterday makes me happy I got off the hook. Drunk, rabid crowd and your music that has been reduced to "whoaaa-whoaaa" and nothing more in combination with the incessant flag waving. I mean, what happened? Seriously. This is not music worthy the name anymore. It's background noise to a drunken mob. I don't want to body shame you, but out of concern for your health I must say that you are starting to look dangerously anorectic. Maybe it's the beard that gives the head abnormal proportions to the rest of the body?  Anyway, that was not ok, to lie like that and betray my trust. This means I am not your friend anymore. I'm not your enemy either, but friends don't do this to one another. It's not ok to be an asshole, douchebag.  So, as you can see Jareds actions in this drama was a dealbreaker. Another dealbreaker, just in  general, involves a policy I have regarding oral sex. Sorry, for using that word. This is not a sex-blog, but the topic is not forbidden either. It's like this, if I start dating a guy and he wants me to do that but won't do this himself, then it's a dealbreaker. For both, I assume. Because he wants that and can't imagine not getting it ever and thinks that I would agree to not get this and still give him that because...why? Because he sees himself as more important and that doing this is a greater sacrifice than that. It shouldn't be a sacrifice, it should be a pleasure. Well, I knew that wouldn't last long, but maybe we can still be friends? 😀

Sunday, April 22

I've been thinking

About the concept of forgiveness. I know I have brought this up before, but it's an interesting concept, because it involves so many cultural and religious misconceptions To begin with: it's a word. A word that symbolizes an act. An act of belief it seems. It has no pyshcological definition, which means no psychological process has been outlined or discovered to explain what forgiveness is. This is what has been bothering me. That I see it as a non-concept. Something that has no actuality. It's a word that in reality stands for many things, but not forgiveness itself, because forgiveness doesn't exist according to science. Hence, I can't offer it to you, just as I can't offer you a unicorn or the tooth fairy. Because I do not believe.  I do not beleive in saying: "it's ok that you did wrong to me", when I don't feel it's ok.  The closest I can come a psyhcological definition of forgiveness would be understanding and accepting the other, or myself. That I understand my own and others innocence in coming to this world, as children, not knowing what to expect. Children who are shaped by their surroundings, society and biological prerequisites.

Then again, what do we know about what we know before birth, or after death? What knowledge do we bring with us to this life?

Forgiveness on Wikipedia. ( I know, bad source, but still..)

As it states  "..there is presently no consensus for a psychological definition of forgiveness .." ( Wikpedia 2018-04-22).

Saturday, April 21

Never really listened to his music

But still heard it. Now I actually took the time to actively listen through some songs and it was quite surprising. I thought he was more techno, like Swedish House Mafia, but it's country basically. Which explain why I didn't listen. It's a horrible genre. Well, rest in peace Avicii. 28 is way too young to die, it should be illegal.

Wednesday, April 18

A cute little poll

To the left.

You can pick multiple options.

Preparing for a presentation tomorrow. Preparations mostly revolve around what to wear. I've got three minutes, so it must be concise. Probably black. I wore a flowery tunic today, can you imagine?

Sunday, April 15

Archive post from 2003

Old post that I found from 2003.  Works today as well. :)

"Serial babblers.

I know a lot of them serial babblers. They are horrible. You can't get them to stop talking no matter what you do.
It's like a mental disease they're having.
As soon as there is a pause in their monologue and one thinks that one could actually have time to say something, then they either don't listen( they think that when someone else is talking is only a good opporunity for them to think of what to say next) or interrupt immediately of the shock of hearing someone elses voice in their head. " ( Angelina Elander 2003)

The woman in the photo is my grandfathers mother Hilma and her dog. 

Thursday, April 12

57 years ago today

On April 12, 1961 Gagarin became the first human in space and in orbit. It's been a dream of mine, and still is, to travel into space, or to ISS at least. I doubt I will volunteer for colonialization of Mars or the Moon. That would be a one way ticket. Unless our space travel technology advances really fast and unexpectedly. But a few months up on ISS to do some research would be neat. Wonder who I should talk to, where to apply. I can write my masters essay up there. They must accept me. :)

Not just metaphorically.

Monday, April 9

When you think about it

Time for example. When people die you are sad because of the time not spent together. You remember the times you could have spent together, but you decided to do something else, because you thought there was plenty of time ahead. Then there wasn't.  My dad said:
- We got the time we got.
Like it was a gift, not a choice. Maybe free will is just an illusion, but nontheless one we must keep to maintain motivation to progress and proceed.  To not solely live for the moment and then be angry when there's no food on the table.

Well, this was a boring topic. It's snowing in April, what do you expect? Worst winter in 100 years. We should blame Game of Thrones. They underestimated the power of " Winter is coming.".

From phenomenal to phenomenology:

Buber was a funny guy with "..his fellow.- creature.." and  "..majesty of destructive destiny..".
Fellow - creature? Is that Eve or just women in general he refers to? 

And then we have the Husserl paradox. 

Husserl argues that others exist in their own right, apart from our subjective experience, but that this is paradoxical since our own experience is all we have.  In order to know the other we must look into ourselves and examine how the other manifests itself in our inner reality and at the same time maintain the belief of the other as real.